I gotta feeling..
Thursday, January 27, 2011 @ 11:08:00 PM
Name: melissa
Date: Thursday 27th 2011f January 2011 03:03:09 PM
Colorgenics Number: 4/0/2/6/5/1/7/3/

Life for some time now has been somewhat depressing and you feel 'under the weather'. You are looking for a means by which you can escape from all the pressures of everyday life. But you must remember that the 'Past does not equal 'Tomorrow'. You are seeking a way to escape from all the trials and tribulations that oppress you at this time, but at least you haven't given up - if one pattern of behaviour doesn't seem to work then you'll change it for another.

You are working extremely hard - perhaps even above and beyond the call of duty. You are preparing for the future and therefore trying to build a firm trouble-free foundation upon which you may base all of your dreams and aspirations.

You feel very lonely and frustrated at this time but your shyness and modesty precludes you from establishing any deep form of relationship. You feel rather isolated and alone. You are egocentric and you believe that you are always right - well maybe you are - but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.

The unwanted situation in which you presently find yourself is causing you considerable stress and frustration and your feeling is that whatever you try to do to remedy this is to no avail. You feel trapped. You want to get away from it all as you feel that you are banging your head against a brick wall getting nowhere. You have turned your aggression inwards and you are furious with yourself for not being able to achieve your goals. You need to go away, somewhere where there are less restrictions and where you can be free to make your own decisions.

You feel utterly wretched - worn out. The demands that other people have been making on you have depleted your strength and stamina. You feel powerless to try to remedy the situation on your own and you are looking for what is hopefully known as 'divine intervention'. But be assured your salvation lies in yourself - you have the ability so use it.


#2010
Thursday, January 06, 2011 @ 9:12:00 PM
Hi there! I've not been blogging for months and i really mean by month(S)! Idk why these few days I've been having the urge to blog again, wanting to summarize what i had for the whole year. Though it's kinda late but it's never too late if you really want it to happen, quote from idk who. Lol.

Anyway, the first quarter of 2010, it's all about FYP(Final Year Project). So I'm very glad that my dad helped me, as usual. He has the patience which I definitely do not possess. He very much assist me like a secretary and i felt relieved that I'm not fighting this alone.

January: Anyway at the start of 2010, i nearly ditch my boyfriend for another guy. It was purely my fault, really. I was a bitch. I know that i'm attached for 2 years plus already and YET i did that to him. So this guy whom i know at a birthday texted me and we continue this for around a month? I was kinda obsessed in him because i seem to lose the feeling of dating a guy and knowing someone right from the start. However, we know that this will never be a good ending to it anyway. Thereafter, i obviously anchored to my boyfriend once again because he's afterall the safest one for me to rely on and share everything. The guy made me treasured my boy even more because I'll not let it happen again.



April: The next best thing of 2010 was to go Taiwan after my graduation from Singapore Polytechnic. The trip was really AWESOME, the perfect word to describe it. Travelled w 17 other friends, including boyfriend. The whole trip was well planned and the best getaway after 3 years of struggle in school back then. We had lots of fun and tried most of the food over there. However we only get to conquer Taipei but i would love to visit the other states of Taiwan. I'll prolly post some pictures so that you can roughly see them.
















May: After the getaway will be the reality. I've promised SYRB to commence work in May which is after my trip. Well, what more can i say? Working life definitely sucks. Although the good thing about this company is that there is no politics and colleagues will help one another when we gotta rush for projects or meetings. You know in some corporate firms, they don't even give a shit about you and it will be even better when you fail to submit on time. Pros and cons though. The cons will be the working hour and pay. My pay is not even equal to my friends who got the same diploma as me. I'll only be able to hit their pay after a year. Can you imagine how long will it take? I'm like doubly slower than them? I have thoughts of quitting yet i think i'll miss my colleagues. They are nice. We even thought of planning a Bkk trip on the end of January. But this is still KIV cause they are on tight budget now. Also, we went clubbing once and it was really fun. I can't club very often due to relationship but i would love to club every weekend. Hahaha.


August: The next sadest thing of 2010 is Cindy's departure from us. Well, I have to admit that we are not those die-hard friends but she's really nice and sweet. The Taiwan trip includes her and everyone had fun. Boyfriend and I, together with moonkian and her shared a room in the hotel. We hang out on the last day of Taiwan trip together, just the two couples. We eat and shop like mad because we gotta save and catch every minute that we had. Her departure was really sudden and it's the last thing you would ever thought of to happen on a 19 years old girl. It was very heart aching to see her parents, siblings, friends and moonkian to cry for her. Everyone doesn't want her to leave but the devils are cruel enough to take her away from us )':





September: Oh well, it was my 20th birthday on September. This year birthday was nothing much. Boyfriend is in camp and by then when he comes out, he was kinda tired to do anything. We had dinner, shop for my present, cut the cake and caught a movie. Oh btw, he fell asleep. But at least the next day, my family and him went to Batam. The trip was kinda screwed at the start because of me. I didn't know that there would be a time whereby we have to board the ship before it actually departs. But still, we manage to go there and though my mom doesn't really like it cause when she does her massage, the curtain will tend to open when people walk past. She felt terrorized by people peeping in which i can forsee it's -0.1%. Hahaha, I'm oh so mean.





October: A cruise trip to the Superstar Virgo totally brightens up my mood for the whole month. It was obviously fun to me because i get to travel with my parents and my baby. The perfect combination of all times. It was just a relax and chill out trip. All i want is to enjoy the company with them and eat to our fill. Laugh like we have never done before due to all the quarrels we had back then. I felt like a whole once again. But anyway, my relatives mocked at my dad for still hanging out w us those my parents had already divorced. So what! I don't even give a fucking damn because as long as we are happy, who the fuck are you to interfere into our happiness? You're purely building up your misery on top of ours.






December: There are couple of long holidays for this month and i feel that the christmas celebration with my colleagues was really fun and heart warming. Just a simple dinner and gathering all together just feel so much like a big family. The next celebration was with my friends. It was quite a disappointment because it wasn't as fun as i thought it would be as compared to last year. I don't feel happy at all. Well, but i personally feel that the new year countdown was a slight improvement. We managed to catch fireworks and went to Henderson Waves to chill. At least it's a proper place to chill you know. Not like some crapshit place whereby you'll be afraid that the police may drop by anytime.




All in all, this year wasn't that bad but find that it passes a little too fast when i started working, Everyday is all about facing the computer and soon, a week will just pass. Like a blink of an eye, like a G6. Hahhaha, no link. Alrighto, i doubt anyone will read this but still, i feel happy by blogging. Seeyea.



Monday, August 23, 2010 @ 11:10:00 AM
if you actually know me well, you might know that my parents are actually divorced and almost every saturday night or alternate saturdays, i'll go to my dad's place to sleepover and the next day, we'll hang out together.

So yesterday, which is a sunday, my dad's side relatives mostly all came back to give offerings to my ancestors. Thereafter, they started talking about my family's problem and discussing and etc. Talking bad about my mom and blah. I was all along in the kitchen and heard everything. I felt very affected by it. Not that i'm siding my mom or my dad but i don't like my family's problem to be shared w the rest and become a topic for them to gossip about. This is not a very glamorous thing at all, so i don't see a point to gossip and rant on other's family issue. I wanted very much to go to the living hall and scream my lungs out at them but i bottled it up because i don't want them to think that i'm disrespecting them.

Last night when my mom got home, she started complaining non stop about a quarrel with my dad. i felt very affected that i don't want my parents to quarrel anymore. What's the point of all the quarreling after the divorce? divorce means to go on separate ways and i want them to lead a happier life than before. The gossipings are actually affecting them and leads to all the quarrel all over again.

I was so pissed and angry that i called all my relative and told them not to interfere into my family's business anymore. I tried my best to lower down my tone and talk to them nicely but i guess they'll still feel offended. Lastly, i called my dad to tell him that i called all of them. He wasn't angry until all of them started calling him and complained that i'm very disrespectful to them. my dad finally called and ask me not to go to his place anymore. Nice. I just want my parents to be happy but what i've got, is this.

This is getting out of hand
Saturday, July 24, 2010 @ 1:53:00 AM

This is getting out of hand
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Thursday, May 13, 2010 @ 3:32:00 PM
CCB! FUCK, IM SO FUCKING PISSED. I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT TO LEAVE THIS FUCKING COMPANY. IF OTHER MY PROBATION, I THINK I'LL GET BACK TO FROLICK AND WORK. START SAVING MONEY AND STUDY, DON'T GET TO THIS FUCKING SOCIETY! WORKING LIFE SUCKS, EVERYDAY IS LIKE AGONY, AT LEAST IN SCHOOL, YOU HAVE YOUR FREEDOM TO DO WHATEVER YOU WANT. WHEREAS THIS SHIT HERE IS LIKE SOME RESTRICTED BOUNDARY . WHATEVER YOU DO, PEOPLE ARE LOOKING AND SPOTTING! FUCK, I REALLY HATE THIS CB LIFE OF MINE!