i can't see you and i can't call you popo anymore.
Monday, September 10, 2007 @ 9:34:00 PM
i can't see, feel and call you anymore. i really really miss you.

this morning before the priest come, mom and aunt karen went to accompany grandma. they cried lah. it hurts to see that scene. we went in too, think i couldn't control and just let out everything. before the coffin is being carried out, relatives and friends must offer joss stick. i saw june's grandma crying badly. she and grandma knew each other for 50 over years. they grew up tgt and her youngest daughter, whom is june's mom married my uncle(mom's eldest bro). imagine your friend who grows old with you leave earlier, i think that will be a very sad thing and fact to accept. thereafter, the coffin is being carried to the van and sons and eldest grandson must push the van. was crying lah. my younger cousin who's only primary 3 cried even badly. she couldn't stop and just keep crying. wah lau, when i see her cry, i also cannot take it. she's only pri 3, and she knows that grandma will never come back anymore.

we reached the place where the body will be cremated, the monks did some chanting and and and, the body was pushed into the 'fire'. aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh, WHY?! why must life be so cruel? just too fast, i need time to adapt.













mom's younger cousin, eh, alan? yeah, alan. 4 years ago when great grandmother passed away, he was the grandson. and please, he was soooooo good looking. suave and cool. rmb he asked ard 30 friends to come and helped out. they carried the coffin on their shoulders and toured around amk for some time. wow, that was damn cool. who will see coffin being carried and tour ard the streets? i was the great grand-daughter. that time great gradmother was ard 94 years old(: well, these 2 days i saw him again. wah, faint can. he grew fat! fatter than last time and he looks so uncle now. hairstyle center parting! fail can. sigh, where's the cool look man? but he's alr 30 years old lah. haha. wah, then i keep telling mom that he's so handsome last time and now, fail. but sometimes when i look at him, will imagine the 4 years ago look. haha. mom said i'm mad. how can i like her cousin who is supposingly my uncle. lol. this kind of thing is hard to say.....