stab me!!
Friday, May 18, 2007 @ 10:34:00 PM
kill me, stab me, just do it! it's better for me than to feel so terrible and the feeling is worse then dying. everything's over. game over. say goodbye to kai cong. he said break lah, cuz he dun have anymore feelings for me. i feel damn horrible inside. i can sense it before he said it. but i just can't accept it. everytime i think of all the happenings that we have gone through together makes me feel sad. i dun tink i can forget him that fast. i love him with all my heart but.. hell lah. this is painful. super painful. i don't know how to face him in the future. as in we're classmates for the next 2 yrs. moreover, i'm over reliant on him. i know i am. how can i lidat? i rely on him to teach me auto cad and everything that i don't know. i'm at loss now. how am i going to do my auto cad the next time? i suck at it. he said he will still teach me but the feeling will be different. as in it will be as a friend. i miss him, i miss everything that i've gone through with him. give me time, i need a long time to forget him. it's too much for me to accept. i may just breakdown soon. kill me!