the reason.
Saturday, May 19, 2007 @ 5:08:00 PM
why am i so useless? why can't i just forget all the past? this morning i went to search for the song, the reason. hell man. i didn't expect myself to cry like shit lah. i just cant stop. omg, it's damn ugly can. this song means a lot to me. it was the first time he sang me a song. why will things turned out to be this way?! forget it. anw, i'm so happy for lishi and ziqing!! they're finally tgt. lol. some kind of friend she is lah. tgt liao also nv tell me. lol. it's damn sweet lah. cuz ziqing is the camp chief for our FO camp. then lishi at that time alr notice him and yeah, think that he's not bad. lol. that time during camp, zq's nick is 'sucker'. lol. then everytime we will say ''eh, sucker leh!!'' lol. come to think of it, miss the FO camp damn much. that time she likes zq while i like duke of blood, daryl. lol. then everytime i will tell lishi, ''eh, duke leh. wah, so cute lah!'' lol. then she will say sucker better. lol. that's so fake. haha. no lah, kidding. then during camp, the handsome ones are, techno wang zi, duke of blood(super cute!), sucker(okay lah, can can lo. haha), sexy papaya. yups, those are the top 3 for me. haha. anw, since now i'm single once again, i can stalk for cute and handsome guys again!!! hooray!! i miss being a stalker. lol. last time i'm one of the full-time stalker. haha. single rocks lah. i can do whatever i want. i dun hafta consider how my the other half will think of me. lol. good sia. yups, if not i dun dare to be a pure retard or even dance or whatever. lol. really sia. so not myself. haha. okie, think that's all for today. i will be strong and be me once again! i'm waiting for myself to start a brand new life! a single status with all my bestest friends around me. i will cherish everyone around me. never will i indulge and throw myself into the trap of relationship. yups, takecare.

to mrcow: i will show u that i can live even better w/o u in my life. i know currently i look like a dead zombie floating around but soon, i will stand up again. firm and strong. i'm awaiting for the day to come. we will still be friends. i will try to treat u as one, w/o the feeling anymore. yups, may we be best friends again. i still love u a lil. haha.