living in my own fantasy
Saturday, August 12, 2006 @ 7:04:00 PM
let me just pour my sorrows in for today. i'm tired. tired of all the false hope he's been giving me. tired of the broken promises he has made. tired of the time and love i've been spending on him. i'm getting out of here. out of the fantasy that i've always been living in. it's like a scar that he had carved on my heart to make me remember him for the rest of my life. it's painful and i had always been living in the past. never taken my first step out of it. let me just leave with your love in my heart and i shall find someone with your soul in his body.

i can finally wear my new shorts today!! yipee, it's a bit loose so i just put on a belt. looks okay i think. after math tuiton, i went to meet mom and we went to jurong point. yeah, gonna see syl-lyn and auntie chris. haven seen them for quite some time. they were at john little buying some stuff so we went there to meet them. i had tuition at 4 and it's already 2 plus, yet we're still doing our shopping. went to fish and co. for lunch. i ordered local fish and chip, lyn ordered new york's fish and chip, mom's is stinray and auntie is some fish i think. can't remember clearly. lyn and me went to walk around jurong point first cuz need some time to wait for the food to be served. first, i went to kappa to look at the sandals which i've been aiming for. yeah, didn't buy anyway. walk around and we went back to wait for the meal. we had a side dish before that and the food finally come. yeah, mine had a s'pore flag there and lyn had a america flag. traitor. lols. kidding. it was yummy and i love it. a bit too greasy and oily, but it's still nice. we left the place at 4 plus and i'm already late. i dowan to missed any lesson you know, and i reach at 4.30. 30 minutes gone and i need time to catch up. i can't sit at my own seat cuz it's occupied. no choice, but to sit at some other place. i'm alone, so lonely. sigh, i just don't like ppl to sit at my seat but i'm the one who's late. tuition was quite okay and the time schedule for next chem lesson has changed because some of us are down for oral. changed to next saturday 6pm to 8pm. urgh, next weel i'll have 4 hours of science you know. can't take it man. ggrr. all cuz of ORAL.

oh ya, i got B3 for my chinese o's. wth. i hate that result can. so lousy and i think i'm re-taking. however, re-taking means i hafta waste time revising. no much time for other subjects. how? dilemma and conclusion: re-taking. i got distinction for my oral so maybe i have a higher chance of improving my grade to A1 or A2. yups, gonna do my very best to do well for chinese. way to go, mel! think that's all for today. takecare peeps and i hate trent.