i'm dead this time round!
Friday, June 30, 2006 @ 4:45:00 PM
today's first period was poa and it turns out to ne quite okay. i'm glad dat i didn't fall asleep lah. anw, after dat was 3 periods of social studies and it wasn't that boring too. but have lotsa hmwk. however there was no assembly today, so we had contact time instead. miss lim came in and discuss with us about the prom night. i'm sure everyone was excited cuz it's like once a lifetime. haha. know wad she said? we'll be having it in sch this time round. wad the. having prom night in school? wad is this man? last year the sec 4s had it in a hotel and this year in sch? imagine yourself wearing so nicely and travel back to sch. next time when u go to poly and ppl ask u, '' where did you have your prom night?'' ''oh, we have it in the school hall?'' muahahaha. i guess they will just burst out laughing and may be boasting that they have in a hotel or sth. okay, fine, if it's in sch, i might as well just dun come.

so after school i still hafta rush for my tuition at 2pm. my friends accompany me to west mall and we bought sushi for lunch lor. yupps, i quickly went to catch my bus b4 i'm late. i reach the place early and just for a while outside while reading my book. okie, today we'll be doing calculations again. damn, i hate that. i just suffer on tues and here comes another mole calculation. anw, i just hate chemistry okay! i tried to catch up but when i start to panick, i forgot the formulas and my mind just go blank. i really tried very hard to improve on my science ever since i join this tuition. i know dat i can't fail my science for o's and here i am to try my very best. but the problem is, no matter how hard i try, i still can't seems to improve my chem. i don't know but mr koh said dat i did improve. but i dun tink so anw. okay, so iw as trying to do and ask one of the boy who sits beside me. he helped me a lot and taught me how to do. really grateful to him. i appreciate it. but everything seems to be confusing me and i jsut can't seems to concentrate. everyone was doing and dat bloody mr koh keep asking for answers from others dat have finish. i'm not done yet!!! can't you see i'm struggling! i tried many questions myself so there was once when i was asking the boy how to do, mr koh saw dat and he thought that he was the one who's stucked. so the pathetic boy just said dat he's teaching me. okay, i know i'm doomed. mr koh was like, ''melissa, you still duno how to do? after practising so many questions and you still duno???'' i shooked my head and i think he nearly gone berserk. he freaked out. oh ya, i forgot to tell u dat his voice is damn loud and i'm really scared whenever he calls my name. i duno why i'm so stressed by it and i just blurt out, ''can u dun talk so loudly? i'm very stressed by it okay!!!'' hahaha. i know, i know. i'm dead. he shoots back and said dat ''my voice is always that loud!'' well, everyone was looking at me. they didn't know dat i'll shoot back at him. i've always been very quiet during this tuition and this time round, i just can't stand it anymore. i know dat i'm slow but you just can't force me rite. my brain jsut can't cooperate with me. wad can i do? tmr is till hafta go back for physics and i really duno how to face the class. really. i dun feel like going for tuition amr, but wad can i do? i need to pass my science! this is not the time for me to throw my tantrum. when the class is dismissed, i was the first to leave and i cried of course. i called cyn but she's napping. so i called mommy instead. i cried while i talk to her and she said dat she'll call mr koh tmr to talk to him. actually, i dowan to change class. i want to be with this tuition class. okay, i really duno wad i'm talking about rite now. anw, this sun i'm going sentosa and i'm going to enjoy myself to the fullest. actually, i want to ask more ppl but duno who to call. mayb him or better not. it'll definitely be embarrassing and cyn dun reli like the idea. nvm, will confirm with her. okay, that's all for today. God bless me tmr (: